I was facebooking (I love that websites end up becoming verbs) with a friend from HS the other day and she had asked me if there was anybody wanted to go to Wall Street for the Occupy Walls Street movement. I replied that I would love to but that I have to work. Her response was to ask if I could take any time off (a week was what she asked) to go to NYC. I replied that I didn't have that much PTO, and couldn't go. Her rebuttal was to say something along the lines of "I love you and I'll support you if you ever decide to fight back" (I'm paraphrasing). But that last comment really got me thinking.
I really would like to protest the whole idea that 1% of the people in this country control 99% of the wealth, or some such thing like that, because I think that it's something worth protesting. But how can you reconcile protesting an injustice with fulfilling your obligations. So how do you protest something that you believe in if it means that you'll possibly lose your job. Is it really fair to look down on those who choose not to protest in favor of fulfilling their obligations and keeping their job? I don't think it's fair but that's the world we live in.
Also, I have a friend who apparently is very offended at my repeating of good and fun sayings that I have heard. I'm inclined to think that imitation is the greatest form of flattery. Is this not the case? More things to ponder.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Mental Rumblings
So, I haven't been updating. I've been busy, and focusing on other things, ergo my blog has been languishing. Which is not to say that I haven't had deep thoughts that ought to go out into the world, just that I don' think that they can be put here. They're not bad, but they're not for public consumption, I think. I have been thinking about journaling more, but again, that leaves my blog to gather dust and cobwebs.
Maybe I need a focus? Something more to write about than my opinions, because let's face it, if I can't bring myself to write about them then clearly they aren't that important to me. But then again, my opinions make up my voice, my thoughts, my personality, more or less. If I don't care about them anymore, what do I have? *le sigh*
I suppose I could write my opinions on Gay Rights and the fight for Equality, constantly coming out (no pun intended) against the GOP and other bigoted homophobic public figures. Call them out, and hold them accountable for what they say and expect them to back it up. I could focus on religious issues, but does anybody really care? I mean outside of the liturgical and theological community who really cares, unless it pertains to an issue currently in the public eye. Naturally I have to have an interest in two issues that are, for the moment, polar opposites. Despite years of work on both sides, it seems that reconciliation isn't going to happen. Perhaps the turmoil I feel spiritually comes from this? I'm not sure. I'm rereading the Dragonlance Chronicles (Autumn Twilight, Winter Night, Spring Dawning). Usually I feel a connection with Raistlin. He's an outcast, slave to his passion which leads to his downfall, and is physically weaker than most other people but has his own brand of strength. Lately, however, I've been feeling a connection with Tanis Half-Elven. A child of rape, he lives in two worlds, elf and human, and neither wants him. He struggles for belonging and faith, which he can't wrap his brain around, at least until the end of the story. I think he's sort of like me, or I'm like him. I exist in the realm of the theological and the homosexual, and currently neither side really understands my beliefs which causes me to have one foot in each movement. Gay rights people want me to change religions, to something that's gay affirming. But asking me to do that is like asking me to give up the bedrock of what I believe in. But asking me to ignore/abandon/change my sexual orientation and not embrace it as a part of who I am is tantamount to the same thing.
No wonder I have such inner turmoil.
I did not intend this blog to end up this deep, but when you get started sometimes things just come pouring out, and if that's the case then I just broke the dam. Hope you, dear reader, didn't get washed away, and are still with me. And technically, at least in central time, I'm still on time for a Wednesday entry.
Happy Wednesday!
Maybe I need a focus? Something more to write about than my opinions, because let's face it, if I can't bring myself to write about them then clearly they aren't that important to me. But then again, my opinions make up my voice, my thoughts, my personality, more or less. If I don't care about them anymore, what do I have? *le sigh*
I suppose I could write my opinions on Gay Rights and the fight for Equality, constantly coming out (no pun intended) against the GOP and other bigoted homophobic public figures. Call them out, and hold them accountable for what they say and expect them to back it up. I could focus on religious issues, but does anybody really care? I mean outside of the liturgical and theological community who really cares, unless it pertains to an issue currently in the public eye. Naturally I have to have an interest in two issues that are, for the moment, polar opposites. Despite years of work on both sides, it seems that reconciliation isn't going to happen. Perhaps the turmoil I feel spiritually comes from this? I'm not sure. I'm rereading the Dragonlance Chronicles (Autumn Twilight, Winter Night, Spring Dawning). Usually I feel a connection with Raistlin. He's an outcast, slave to his passion which leads to his downfall, and is physically weaker than most other people but has his own brand of strength. Lately, however, I've been feeling a connection with Tanis Half-Elven. A child of rape, he lives in two worlds, elf and human, and neither wants him. He struggles for belonging and faith, which he can't wrap his brain around, at least until the end of the story. I think he's sort of like me, or I'm like him. I exist in the realm of the theological and the homosexual, and currently neither side really understands my beliefs which causes me to have one foot in each movement. Gay rights people want me to change religions, to something that's gay affirming. But asking me to do that is like asking me to give up the bedrock of what I believe in. But asking me to ignore/abandon/change my sexual orientation and not embrace it as a part of who I am is tantamount to the same thing.
No wonder I have such inner turmoil.
I did not intend this blog to end up this deep, but when you get started sometimes things just come pouring out, and if that's the case then I just broke the dam. Hope you, dear reader, didn't get washed away, and are still with me. And technically, at least in central time, I'm still on time for a Wednesday entry.
Happy Wednesday!
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